In this post I'm going to discuss the innermost of the three wheels of the center wheel of the reading, which represents the present. I'll include my brief opinion on the cards in parentheses, then go into a bit more detail at the end.
Here we go then!
Present life activity
Card 1. Inner self, karmic path
7 wands inverted – Aggression,
Taking the offensive, refusing to yield, having a fixed position, acting with resolve, knowing I am right: is this conflict worth the struggle? Is it important and does it have value?
Card 2. Security and relationships
9 swords – Worry, Guilt, Anguish
Doubt, anxiety, being hard on myself, overwhelmed by remorse, depression, reaching a limit, forgetting joy, a vulnerable spot in life, wanting to cry, Warning that the path may be a difficult one. Doesn’t mean a major distress, just a vulnerable spot. Severe anxiety.
(Being worried about my relationships with friends, concerned about my future, my relationship with Will in particular. Also may indicate my anxiety disorder, which I have suffered from since before high school).
Ace Swords – Mental Force, Truth, Justice, Fortitude
Objectivity, finding out the facts, using intellect and logical reasoning, overcoming adversity, being undaunted by setbacks, strength to overcome, responsibility, finding out what’s real, seeing through illusion. Inner resources to overcome adversity and persevere. Firm resolve.
(Wanting to learn more, take responsibility in life. One of my life philosophies is all about overcoming adversity through inner strength, so this makes a lot of sense to me)
Queen Cups – Loving, tenderhearted, intuitive, psychic, spiritual
Infinite patience, unconditional acceptance, sensitivity, compassion, intuition, understanding, appreciates deeper meaning – an atmosphere of love acceptance and respect for feelings.
(Sounds good to me. I love my family and they're very accepting of me. It hasn't always been that way, but lately it certainly has been).
Princess Swords inverted – Use your mind, be truthful, be just, have fortitude
Wanting to use logic and reason, reexamine beliefs, to learn or teach, to research the facts,, wanting to act honestly and speak directly, to expose what is hidden, right a wrong, having trouble acknowledging the other point of view, trying to move out of depression, needing to meet setbacks with new energy, getting discouraged but not wanting to. Wanting to enjoy ‘intellectual delights’
(I hope to be strong, I hope and desire to stop being so depressed all the time, and I hope for more energy in my life to be honest etc.)
4 cups – self-absorption, apathy, going within
Focus on own feelings, wanting for the self, seeing my own point of view, lacking motivation and little desire, passive acceptance, feeling life is stale and flat, contemplating, meditating, dreaming, pausing to reflect, needing time to restore emotional balance and renewal. Being wrapped up in my own little world.
(I'm concerned about getting too involved in my own little world, and very concerned about my lack of motivation and my unbalanced emotions).
Card 7. Partners, loved ones
The Moon – Fear, illusion, imagination, bewilderment
Releasing inner demons, being overcome by anxiety, chasing after a fantasy, entertaining unusual thoughts, vivid dreams or visions, loss of direction and purpose, trouble thinking clearly, easily distracted, expanded awareness, traveling through the unknown, needing to find clarity of purpose. Illusions.
(Covers a lot of things relating to my relationship with Will; inner demons that I can release by talking to him, being very worried about our relationship, the unusual thoughts and vivid dreams, and being easily distracted).
8. The mystic symbol – potential gains
The Hanged man inverted – Letting go, reversal, suspension, sacrifice
Emotional release, acceptance, giving up control, changing of mind, seeing from a different perspective, pausing to reflect, giving up urgency, acting the martyr, one step back, two steps forward, needing to put others first. Needing to release instead of forcing will on others, needing to wait instead of acting. The best approach to the problem isn’t always to most obvious. Ability to move forward by standing still.
(Kinda PFO here; I will gain a lot by learning from this card;s ideas of release and letting go).
Card 9. Distance, travel
9 of cups – Wish fulfillment, satisfaction, sensual pleasure
Achieving desires, obtaining goals, getting what I think I want, contentedness, relaxation, appreciation. Feeling as if all is right with the world, ensuring you know what you really want and accept responsibility, not indulging at the cost of others.
(... Not really sure how that relates to travel or distance really. Hey, I never promised the cards were always right all the time - they don't work like that in my opinion. If anything, this may be indicating to me that any journeys I'm going on, be they actual journeys or journeys of the mind will help me achieve my desires. Hey, how about that, I made it relate! Sweet..)
7 cups inverted – wishful thinking, options, dissipation
Getting caught up in illusion, lacking focus and commitment, wild-running imagination, offered many alternatives, overindulging, being lazy, procrastinating, being disorganized, and neglecting health, addictive patterns. Being sloppy, impractical and lax, needing to back up plans and dreams with work and effort, needing to commit in order to reach goals. Also, perhaps needing to let go of some of the rigidity and regularity in order to discover options? Or maybe needing to structure things up to avoid mindless self-indulgence.
( This is definitely talking about my 'life's work' of wanting to be a graphic novelist. I've been procrastinating, have been uncommited and dreamy and not backing plans up with work and effort. May also be warning me to loosen up to improve my 'karmic amplitude' (which to me means my personal ability to affect others, or how I'm going to affect others), because this lack of focus could be harmful to others and myself).
Card 11. True desire for the self and others
The world inverted – integration, accomplishment, involvement, fulfillment
Working together, dynamic balance, joining together, finding a solution, discovering heart’s desires, prosperity, healing, activity, being contented, peace of mind, counting blessings. Wholeness, stability, balance. Connectedness, wanting all the elements to come together. Needing to contribute in order to get ‘the world’.
(Relates to conflict among myself and friends and their conflicts. Right now my deepest desire is for my friends to have all the things listed above. And it's inverted because I feel like a lot of my friends, and in some cases I myself, aren't looking towards those goals at all).
Card 12. Hidden vibrations on the subconscious level
7 Pentacles inverted – assessment, reward, direction change
Needing to find out where I stand, make sure I’m on course, pausing to check results, finally seeing results, payoffs, reaching milestones, standing at a crossroads, opening to a new strategy, thinking about changes, weighing a different approach. A time-out, needing to take stock at key moments, to ensure goals are being met, needing to figure out if a course-correction is needed. A time-out in the game. Getting ready to jump in after a stillness.
(Again, PFO. It's subconcious for sure - I don't constantly try to figure out where I stand, but I do know in my heart and my head that this card has the right idea for the 'hidden' vibrations, or what is affecting me beneath the surface).
Card 13. (SOLIDIFIER 1) Direction as a result of present life activity
5 swords– Self interest, discord, open dishonor
Setting aside the concerns of others, looking out for number one, knowing the need to concentrate on the self, being in a hostile environment, feeling people are set against each other, experiencing conflict, letting ends justify the means. Defining interests too narrowly, bearing in mind consequences of actions – what we do to the world, we do to ourselves. Needing to hold on to a larger view of who I am and finding the solution that’s best for everyone including myself.
(See below for analysis)Some thoughts on this reading:
First off, I noticed the different amount of different suits in this reading:
1 Wands
4 Cups
4 Swords
1 Pentacles
and 3 Major Arcana cards.
Cups, traditionally associated with water and emotion, show up in a lot of my readings, as I consider myself a 'water' person. I also am both a very emotional person and an empath, meaning I pick up on other people's feelings and emotions very easily, and this is something that's been very present in my life as of late. This is the opposite of swords interestingly enough, as swords are all about thinking with the head and applying logic and reason. However, they are cards of air, and I am also something of an 'air' person (but more on my elements later). The presence of Major arcana cards indicates that I've been making some important decisions lately, or possibly that the subjects those cards fell under are very important to me right now (my partners and loved ones, my potential gains, and my true desire for myself and others... yeah, sounds about right).
Seeing the 5 of swords in the solidifier position was a little disconcerting (it's not really the happiest of cards on the surface), but I really just see it as a warning. I need to remember that no matter how bad things get, I have to hold on to my true Self and find a solution in a situation of dischord that will be the best for everyone, including myself. I wouldn't be surprised if this card is encouraging me to encourage Will to move out of Jeff's house, as that is a discordant situation which, once resolved, will be better for everyone.
So that's the center wheel. Later today (only if I study a lot of course) I'll hopefully find time to post the middle wheel, the wheel of the future.
Hope you found this interesting,
Liz
1 comment:
Thank you for this most informative - and organized blog. I'm new to tarot (got obsessed after a friend did my reading last weekend at a dinner part). I immediately started researching tarot and got interested in Rahdue's Wheel right away. I'm awaiting your Part 2 with anticipation ...
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